Swallowing my pride..

Sometimes being submissive, being the one to yield, biting my tongue....is HARD.


Friday night I really wanted to go visit my new baby niece WITH my husband. He hadn't met her yet and the only plans we had for the evening was to go grocery shopping because our fridge and cupboards were so very lacking at the time. You see, I don't understand why we couldn't do both. Why did we have to choose between the two? Lets go real wild and do TWO things in one night! Crazy! In fairness, he gave me some options. I wanted him to choose though, I didn't want to force him to do something he didn't want to. He chose shopping , and its not that that didn't sound like a good idea to me but I had it in my mind I wanted to go see the baby. He said I could still go....by myself. Not really what I had in mind. I really wanted to go together. He kept insisting we could just go Saturday and if not, then Sunday. The fact that meeting our niece for the first time wasn't looking like a big priority to him (at least through my eyes) really bothered me. I gave him lots of attitude and kept suggesting other alternatives or possibilities and questioning why we couldn't just do both. (Basically, I was acting like a five year old).

We were on our way home when it became apparent to me after texting with my sister-in-law, that seeing the baby Saturday was not going to be an option...she already had a bunch of her family members coming that day. She asked why we don't just come tonight (Friday). Lol!! Umm. That seemed to be the question of the night! I asked my husband again in the most whiney, irritated way possible about going to her house and he responded: "We. Will. Go. TOMORROW. Now stop asking, you're gonna get a spanking."

Well that was the first time he had actually sounded serious when he said he would spank me, and I was a little shocked. And a little mad. Not so much because of the threat of a spanking but because I knew what this situation called for.. It was like the line drawn in the sand. I was a little pouty because I knew this wasn't going to be fun for my pride. There were two ways this could go. Either I would obey and everything would be dropped and we could go on with our night...OR this would turn into an unnecessary fight (with a Pre-determined winner) ending with me turned over my husband's lap!

It wasn't really a question in my mind. But it doesn't change the fact that doing what was right, was not easy, and not fun. I became absolutely silent after he "drew the line in the sand". Partly because I was pouting, yes. But also because I knew if I were to say anything it would not be helpful or in any way constructive to the situation. I definitely think in the future I could handle myself better afterwards, not going silent with evil daggers shooting from my eyes... But you know, Baby steps;)

We ended up having a great night together, even though I was a little sassy. He took out some aggression on me later in bed together;)We talked about the night as we were cuddling and getting ready to go to sleep. He was proud that I was able to "bite my tongue" as he put it.

Hope everyone had a great weekend and thanks for stopping by!

-Jasmine

His First "Edict"

Yep, edict....that's the word he used. The online dictionary defines the word "edict" as: any formal or authoritative command, proclamation. Sounds like something the royals would say if you ask me!

Nevertheless, it seems as though he's settling into his role...and appreciating it for what it is. He told me at first he thought this would be something that I was into for a moment but would fade away. Or that once I was told to REALLY do (or not do) something that I didn't want to, that I would not be able to submit. He's surprised, and happy to see thats not the case. That I've behaved as though DD is our lifestyle regardless of what he's doing.  That felt great to hear! He even gave a good friend of his who is experiencing some marital issues advice, referring (slightly) to what we've been doing. Why is it that men share this stuff so much more easily than women do??? Alright I'm going all over the place with this post!

Back to the topic at hand.....

The other night he tells me "I've got my first edict as head of this household....we need to get in the habit of cleaning up the house each night before bed...it's going to be YOUR job to remind me to get everyone in action". (You see, our house kind of looks like maybe some sort of catastrophe came sweeping through and the wreckage has been left for the Red Cross to come handle!! Which is clearly never going to happen. Ok, no it's not THAT bad. But it's not pretty either....it's one of those areas I've wanted to improve in....keeping the house nice for my family. It's not that I necessarily believe I am the only one responsible for our home's cleanliness, but I do feel a sense of pride as a wife and mother when it feels good inside our home and dinner is made etc...).

I asked if I would be punished if this was forgotten. He said yes, that all I have to do is remind him. I am not responsible for cleaning by myself (um thank God). He thinks, and actually I agree, that getting the kids into this habit nightly will set them up to be more responsible and proactive as they get older. I like it! So let's see if I can remember this and if my husband will follow through! You'll be happy to know I'm past trying to "get in trouble" on purpose...I've received enough "good girl" spankings now to know he's got it in him!

P.S. I got myself a brand new all wooden hairbrush...What???? I'm just saying!! Lol

Happy Tuesday!

-Jasmine

Giving it up...No, not like THAT;)

It's FRIDAY people!!! Wahoo! Can I just say I'm so happy this week is over? It's been busy and I'm ready for a little reprieve. A date night is definitely in order VERY soon!

With that being said something kind of unexpected happened last night. Not a "big" deal, but at this point, I suppose everything's a big deal to us;)

I outed myself to my husband....about my blog! He knew I was reading blogs but didn't really know about my writing my own, sharing stories about us. I read aloud each and every one to him. It's so funny how after all of this time and everything I've already shared (that mind you, did NOT make him go running for the hills) that I still worry. I still get shy and nervous about sharing these thoughts with him.  I still wonder if he will completely freak out and call the looney bin to have me committed....ok ok a bit dramatic, yes. 

I told him about my favorite bloggers to read (yep, you guys out there: June and Ward, NewBea, Ian and Lillie, Mick and Linda, Kitty the submissive wife, Susie, Christina, Clint and Chelsea...I'm leaving people out I know, but you get my point). I shared some of the stories that made me literally laugh out loud or that I found were very similar to ours. He loved it! He was so supportive, told me he only wanted me to share things I felt comfortable sharing and how any man would love to hear these things from his wife. Side note: Sometimes I wonder if this man has angel wings hidden beneath his shoulder blades like John Travolta in the movie "Michael". Good lord, I don't know how he does it! Haha anyways, I'm so grateful for the support. 

 I told him how Bea's husband over at NewBea's blog came up with a name for himself so she could refer to him as something other than "my husband". I love the idea and asked if he'd do the same.....he's still thinking. (Hey, names are a big deal...can't take it lightly,) Lol!

 Oh! I almost forgot I also shared the wonderful advice I got on my last post about the "devil on my shoulder" with him. He agreed and really liked hearing what other people thought. We live in a very small house and share a wall with our oldest child. One of his big concerns is having our kids overhear him spanking/lecturing me. I know several bloggers out there have had to deal with that issue as well. If this is you, could you remind me how you "tackled" that??

I wish all of you a safe and happy weekend! Thanks for stopping by:)

-Jasmine